I saw just a little bit of the Planet Earth series. Man oh man!
Have you ever looked at an animal and thought: how nice for them, they don’t have a care in the world. All they do is eat and sleep. They certainly don’t have the kind of stress that humans do. No bills to worry about and no emotional drama. After watching Planet Earth I found that those thoughts are so far off!
The reality is that the struggle is real for ALL beings. Imagine having to worry about being attacked EVERY DAY. I mean, for an animal to even survive and make it to adulthood, you know they had to go through some shit!
I watched a small bit that had me on an emotional roller coaster. I felt so sad and angry as I watched a fox ruthlessly kill another animal’s young. I mean how dare she prey on defense less little offspring?? I kept watching only to find out this fox was trying to feed her own young. That’s nature for you. Needless to say, my mind was blown and I gained a new perspective which is: the struggle is real for ALL beings.
Just a thought.
I recently had two instances where straight men told me about their experience of being checked out by another man. To be honest, it was amusing to me watching them describe how uncomfortable it made them feel. I was laughing as all I could think about was… I know!
As women, we experience those un-welcomed lustful looks I’d say much more frequently than straight men. In both instances, the men that were describing heir experience were so animate and just plain uncomfortable with the whole idea this even happened. What was most interesting to me was that it didn’t even occur to them that this is something women go through all the time.
This led me to wonder about those men that randomly cat call women on the streets. I wonder if they had a similar experience on the receiving end, would it make them self reflect on how they make women feel? Or would they just be appalled that a man would look at them lustfully?
Just a thought.
I suppose I should begin by introducing myself.
My name is Lisset. Growing up I was extremely shy and unbeknownst to me, uncomfortably self conscious. The day I made the big move from my parents house to my college dorm, I decided that I would no longer be that timid girl I was in High School. I was determined to make the most of my college years and take full advantage of my fresh start. I made a decision that day, that I was no longer shy little Lisset. I was Liz. Liz was confident and outgoing and I introduced myself as such.
My first week, while my peers and I waited for class to begin, I went around to as many people as I could and boldly introduced myself with a hand shake and a: “Hi! I’m Liz.” It took so much out of me to strike up conversations with strangers. But oh how it was worth it! I quickly met many people that contributed to some of my most memorable college years. Don’t get me wrong, my self confidence was still a struggle but becoming Liz was that first conscious effort toward making a change.
I went on to meet the love of my life. We shared 7 blissful years before becoming engaged for two more years and then breaking up. I felt my life crumble and I realized shortly after, that somewhere in the midst of the best years of my life, I had subtly and slowly regressed into a more introverted version of myself. I realize now, that even though I felt happy at the moment, I lost myself in that relationship. Since he was such an extrovert, it was easy for me to hide behind him and not really put myself out there like I did when I first became Liz. Reflecting on who I had become reminded me of shy little Lisset that hid behind her extroverted older brother as a child and hid behind her extroverted best friends in school.
Being single for the past two years and a half has been an emotional roller coaster. It has been devastating and exciting, depressing and fun, spiritual and wild and I wouldn’t have it any other way. Regardless of what happens from this point forward, I know one thing: I am THANKFUL. I am thankful for that relationship, and I am thankful for this season of singleness. Through these experiences, I have gotten to know myself better than ever. MOST IMPORTANTLY, at age 30 I can confidently say that I love myself. So much that I no longer feel the need for my decoy Liz. I am Lisset. Lisset is a sweet person. She is friendly and outgoing, loves to meet people and get to know the good in them. I love spontaneity and I am up for trying new things.
There’s one thing I haven’t let go of for the most part, and that is the people pleaser in me which has unintentionally lead me to becoming a total Yes Man. As a result, I’ve had some great adventures with unexpected people, I’ve been engaged in interesting conversations, and gained different perspectives on some of the most random topics. You know those things you think about sometimes that make you wonder if someone else has had those same thoughts or if you are just weird? Allow me to share some of mine with you…
Have you ever had those super random thoughts that sound brilliant in your own mind but at the same time they are kind of silly and sometimes over the top? So much that you wouldn’t dare share them with others at the risk of sounding strange? My thoughts exactly. I’m taking the courage to put mine out there… on here.
This blog is meant to compile a series of humorous stories that derive from everyday random thoughts. I’m talking about those off the wall thoughts that make you wonder if ever, someone else has thought these same thoughts. The purpose of this is simple. At the very least, I hope that my quirky blog posts will be amusing; but the biggest reward would be to know that I may have made someone chuckle.